wat the h

feel damn bad for no reason

what the h. am i

early in the morning

hyper like nobody business

business exam make me feel ok ok

but i am still hyper for that

now

cheeeeh

feel like a piece of shit

wth seriously?

not bcz of mid term for sure

this wunt bring a huge huge huge emotional effect toward me

just now having a meeting for the coming event

feel i am doing nothing

feel i am passion-less in this

lol

how come

eh please lar

once you carry the responsible

can you put 100% effort inside ar

can be carry more responsible ar

can you be more active when discussing ar

can you done somethings perfect

perfect perfect perfect

what is the definition of it

everyone praise you for that

everyone like your ideas

everyone agree with you

everyone loves you

could it be possible

too many things you need to carry

to many people you need to face with

although you say this is just a small mistake

and we can learn from these mistakes

but i realy cant accept mistake

i wana everything be done nicely

if can

i wouldnt allow mistake occur

but unfortunately

this already consider as a past tense

i really cant forget those mistakes that i had made

i learn somethings from it

but i didnt welcome it forever

people say

before people become successful

they must be a failure 1st

realy?

i do not want this theory apply on me

i want do everythings best

i wanna everythings to be nice

i want somethings that consider as PERFECT

but it seem like

impossible things?

i care those opinion

i care those ideas

i care their thinking

i care how they feel on me

i do care it

i mind it

when can i learn that

do not too care people's thinking?

why i need to guess people thinking toward me?

why i am so negative thinking?

haloooooo

you gonna study psychology ok

emotional thinking lead you failure

wake up

feel bad seriously

没有了

原本对你
感觉越来越好
也意味
我们之间会越来越近

直到昨天
听到那句话
感觉全部就逐渐消失

原来有些事情
不是我想怎样就怎样
不是我会这样别人也会这样

有的时候
你的那句话
会让我怀疑
到底是叫谁

叫我的同时
是不是也这样的称呼其他的人
如果是这样
就收回好了
我不需要

我不喜欢用同样的称呼去称呼别人
同样的
我也不喜欢这样的被对待

或许不是你暧昧不清
而是你的本性驱使
不管是哪一个
全部就这样算了

之前就说过
现在才开始实践
应该还不迟

就算捉摸不透
我都不想再去做无谓的猜测

笨蛋的事
做一次就够了

无聊的事
有过一次就好

你的事
没有再在乎的必要


没有了

happy birthday to you~!

29.09.2010

this is a good day
cheeee..

early in the morning
waiting shengyi at lrt
but she was late
i called , x answer
i sms , x reply
damn angry dat time
my birthday weh daijie

then i go alone
=(

after reach there
saw my supplier
he ask "r u angry"
ohahahha
ofcz lar wehhh..
you try and see

finish class
went to hp. shop to charge hp
he didnt charge me for service
awwww
so good

wana return book to supplier
then met a lot of friend
chat there , jokes there and blar blar blar
kamsahaminda
hug a lot of ppl also
cheeeeee

go pasar seni take rapidpass
the picture damn ....... erm erm :)
then we rush back
since shengyi said "yunfang gt shooting later"
we rush like F1 sport car
lol
birthday girl need to rush for birthday meals
what theory is this?
i dun noe weh

when gona reach secret recipe
shengyi close my eyes
den wen i go in and open my eyes
saw shaun , mimi , diyana , juyi , calvin at thr
but sheng yi disapear
we chat and wait there
then sdnly juyi close my eyes
shaun and she sing beside my ears
damn noisy
ohahahhaahhaha

when they prepare well
open my eyes
saw yunfang , shengyi , bunny , anneohasehyo , bamboo and khaiwyon
yunfang n shengyi take a big big card and laptop stand at there
a big big card that full with LOVE
a "hand-made" video that full of LOVE
and
12 pieces of cakes that different favour
i just stunned at there
lol
12 pieces of cakes , how to finish it?

they said i must try each cakes
and tell them which 1 is nice
awwwwwwww
after i tried
they only started to eat the cakes

when watching at the video
i just feel "OMG"
too many "old" pictures inside
with the song that we LOVE the most at secondary school
awwwwwww
damn touch weh

then looking at the big big card
shengyi said "read the T word"
ohahahhaha
i gt what she means
then the shaun damn cute
"anlar anlar , his 1 so nice lar..mine 1 nt nice"

shaun ar shaun
chill lar

take photo , eat lunch and cakes at thr
sms with he that time
cheeeeeee
fell good

back coll.
attend class.

when back home
dat sheng yi said "yon, roti boy lo"
me "ok , we gt rapidpass..hahahha'
when reach klcc station
went down
shengyi keep asking me look forward
om~~!!!!!!

HUICHIN
dat kiampa girl wehhhh
i nvr nvr nvr expect i will saw her at that my birthday
she gave me a pendrive
hehheheheheh

finally i noe why dat shengyi sdnly junxaeng
wen denzie said "since 2dy is our birthday , i fetch you bk"
she said "no,yon~! i want lrt"
grrrrrr
liar~!!!

wen bk to wangsa maju
called mummy
mummy said "your fren sms me and said will fetch you bk"
"lol mumy , whr gt? no lar.."

shengyi ask "who? what?"
"neh , dun noe wich za pian ji tuan sms my mum said gt ppl fetch me bk"

when we reach thr
shengyi said "my brother fetch you back"
then she open the front door
i was thinking "lol.. your brother's car why i sit infront"
when i look inside , see that GAN CHEE HEING
omggggggg
damn suprise larr

then we go feeling cafe there
met charlotte at there
charlotte belanja some tasty food
yummy weh
we chat a lot at thr
then chee heing paid bills
and become driver to fetch us back
damn love his car weh
very comfortable
feel sleepy also

*there are a lot of feeling and thought that cant express in world , and some of the feeling just wish to keep as a secret.. it was sweet.... for me at that moment..

*i appreciate what yunfang and the liar did
love you so muchhhhhh
thanks for giving me a memorable day

* pictures , lazy upload :)

难懂

你真的让我摸不透

真的真的摸不透

怎么你以前所会做的事

又回来了？

不是已经过去了吗

为什么要再回来

你怎么可以有这样快的转变？

刚刚适应了

你却偏偏如此

你到底在想些什么？

我不想想太多

尤其是在生日前夕

我承认

我不算真的放下

可是已经没有太过于牵挂

表面上或许是

但心里知道你是否值得

××

you are a good person :)

thankyou for remind me those stuff..

help me check my elearning oso..

thanks ,

my supplier :)

life still goes on :)

安问我说 ：“生日要到了，很期待吧”

其实
还好而已
不知是不是给那个BABY影响
对生日并没有多大的期待
或者是不想期待


不需要怎样的庆祝方式
只要我想要的人在我身旁
只要有你们的祝福
就够够够够够够了
哈哈哈哈
我很容易满足的好不好

最近跟你

关系又不错了一些

我不知道

是否因为得不到

所以才会有牵挂

还是因为真的放不下

你的信息

一封一封的储存在手机里

不舍得删除

那曾经的过往

之前

明明就没事了

不知道是否因跟你的关系有点回暖

所以又停止了原本应该前进的步伐

反正

我也没看得太重

应该不会有不好的事发生

最近的生活

过得很好

有GAR.这个血压上升器在

很难不好

=.=

倒数？

没必要

life still goes on :)

放

其实

你完全不需要

你有属于你自己的

不是离开与否

而是放手与否

你是否如你所表示的介意般

没有人知道

你看似失去了

但你得到的

远比你想象的多

或许外人看来

你是在乎

但我看来

却不是这样的一回事

为什么有这样的差别

没有人知道

观念不同？

或许是

价值观不同？

也有可能

摆脱了束缚

有的是自由

放开了缠绕着的枷锁

换来了心灵的自主

再也不属于的感觉

究竟如何

要亲自尝试过

才能了解

erm erm erm

erm erm erm
can some1 donate his/hers brain juice to me?
my brain juice already 0%
=.= sad case

the trip again
at first
i think that there will only about 20+ people join us
but now
already have 40+ people

omg
my mouth just *O* like this
zzz

i need to arrange transport for them
arrggg
i do not know how to arrange only consider as NICE
erm erm erm
random drop people?
arhahha

halooooo
this is my first time help peoplesssss arrange weh
idea please

my business homework still HANG at there
i wish to do it and 2morrow need to discuss already
but i need to complete my works for that trip 1st
(=o=)

ish

i just hope everything will be ok
the trip will be fun


字面上的意思
并不一定就是真正的意思

它可能只是避免更大的伤害而创造出来的字

有的时候
因为预测得到答案
所以反而不说
毕竟你都可以知道99%是你所预测的那个
那说出来似乎也没有什么用不是吗

该归咎于思想
还是怎样

既然前几年所谓“大”伤害
都能熬过
现在应该也不差
虽然不想再来一次
但或许...
谁知

今天
真的很有“人缘”
遇到HK, Gabriel, Fatihah
走什么运？
人运！ =。=


aza aza fighting