no title

you are not the one who experienced these type of things
therefore you will never know how it feel

dont try to tell me that you understand everything
no.. you dont
even if you understand situation but you cnt understand how the person feel

i was wonder
why i like to read those kind of book that can cause me
knowing the truth that some1 trying to hide for sometime?

from the words that you used
from the tone that you speak
can actually know what and how you feel at that moment

last
stop judging me based on your own experience
you and i are totally different

last night

was a small alcohol party for valentines day

at first,

there was a important mission for that party

but everything spoil

just bcz of some1 was drunk

sigh

i juz hope my next valentine wont be lik this anymore

finaly

everythings is clear

feel?

feel free + a bit of sadness

nevermind

i know that i am getting better even there are no1 beside of me

sometime i just wonder

am i good in pretend untill nobody discover how i feel actually?

or

they discover but just feel to leave me alone bcz they think i cn handle?

or

they didnt realise at all?

what i need

is someone who can actually give me the time

fully concentrate on what i talking and sharing

i miss you right now

no matter how bad am i

you will still beside me and give your time for me

i never need to pretend when infront of you

this is why i love you

2mrw gonna present

hope everything will be fine

and good luck for my presentation

You

with a cup of red wine

and i miss you

when drinking a cup of wine

brain started to think a lot

You,You,You and sometimes is You

You

my feeling towards you is so complicated

sometimes,

i feel good toward you

but sometimes,

i feel bad

how come?

maybe this should ask you or me?

You

we long time didnt chat

and i just wonder how cn i think of you at this moment

i feel unfair

pls dont tell me that you are still the same

you are not =)

although i miss those moment

but i noe we should move forward

You

hahhahahaha

i really donoe how to describe

just some personal feeling toward you

dun worry

the feeling is not bad but still lack of something

if you are a fair person

lol..but i know human cnt be fair at all

You

everytime i stop walking toward you

you come toward me

what should i said?

this 1 week holiday really helps me a lot

rock you holiday =) !!!!!!!

anyway

i think should be okay when open college right?

hope so lar then

you always say that i am good

but you never think that there are some devil part of me

dun forget that i am a normal person

no matter how i try to be

i will get distracted

especially emotional distraction

i try to find a lot of excuse, lot of reason

for you..

but so funny..

these excuse and reason never make me feel better

new year gonna end

means life start again?

arhaaaa..

cheer up pls =)

i hate

yeaaa.. i cnt even noe hw i feel now
seem lik everythings getting worst
i cnt even try to act lik everythings okay
i can calm down but my brain nt allow me to do so
i realy cnt understand why i cnt even try to nt think about this

i cnt stop imagining how the situation was
i cnt stop thinking lots of things
all things come with 1 shot and make me feel bad

i seem lik dun care
i seem lik everythings is fine
but do i ?

everybody saying the same words
but the effect is so so so small until i cnt feel anythings
maybe this is the things that every1 will experience once in their life

i do not know why i cnt accept this
maybe i realy sucks in these stuff
i dun noe
brain stucking like traffic jam?
ha.. maybe
now realise that improvement of something is a must :)

i cnt even blif i cnt calm down in dat situation
i cnt even blif i will make this mistake

i feel to getting a rest but i m nt in home right now
if not i alreadygt into slp and 4gt about all these stuff
wat i do now is just act, act and act
yessssss..!
if not, what to do to make me feel better?!!

thanks for those who consult of me
appreciate you guys *love*

last,
elyon, you SUCKS!

oOOoOoOoOoO

oOooOOoOooOoOoOoOOoOoo
long time didnt come and blogging
and i 4gt my email
phewwwwwwwww..

sem3 now..
start to becom lazy
maybe bcz i edi finish the course that i like
anyway
still nid to pass all the sub in sem3
if not
seriously waste my time :)

haihhhhhhhhhhhh
lots of ppl that i noe in moral study
good or bad?
yea.. if he is nt thr
it shud be good i tink
damn kekok wen he is bhind
wat the

chill chill
everything will be ok
score nice nice for every course is more important for now

* thr are things that nid time to stop it
no mater hw hard it try now
it still around your mind
everything will be ok my dear

:)