i hate

yeaaa.. i cnt even noe hw i feel now
seem lik everythings getting worst
i cnt even try to act lik everythings okay
i can calm down but my brain nt allow me to do so
i realy cnt understand why i cnt even try to nt think about this

i cnt stop imagining how the situation was
i cnt stop thinking lots of things
all things come with 1 shot and make me feel bad

i seem lik dun care
i seem lik everythings is fine
but do i ?

everybody saying the same words
but the effect is so so so small until i cnt feel anythings
maybe this is the things that every1 will experience once in their life

i do not know why i cnt accept this
maybe i realy sucks in these stuff
i dun noe
brain stucking like traffic jam?
ha.. maybe
now realise that improvement of something is a must :)

i cnt even blif i cnt calm down in dat situation
i cnt even blif i will make this mistake

i feel to getting a rest but i m nt in home right now
if not i alreadygt into slp and 4gt about all these stuff
wat i do now is just act, act and act
yessssss..!
if not, what to do to make me feel better?!!

thanks for those who consult of me
appreciate you guys *love*

last,
elyon, you SUCKS!